There is a line in U2’s song, “Beautiful Day,” that used to make me cry. Okay, yeah, it still does. “Touch me. Take me to that other place. Reach me. I know I’m not a hopeless case.” Just a couple of years ago, I used to reach my arms to Heaven, hating my life, and cry that line, because I knew that deep down inside, in my core, I really DID know how to be happy. I knew that, as miserable and sick as I was, severely depressed and agoraphobic to the point of absolute disability, on multiple medications and unable to even leave the house without great anxiety, I was NOT a hopeless case.
Now I cry with grateful joy because I’m THERE in that other place. I’m absolutely fully ALIVE and enjoying my life. I’ve been reached by God/dess. I’ve learned to SEE the BEAUTIFUL DAY in every day that God/dess gives me. The dream of being happy that I nourished every time I would cry that to the Heavens has been REALIZED. I am able to be the grateful, fun, happy person that I AM in my core.
Because yeah, I have not always had an attitude of gratitude. In fact, I kinda hated that term. Because as a warrior, I mistakenly thought that my job was to point out everything that was WRONG with everything all the way around me. Which, in the opinion of most humans living here, let’s face it, is A LOT. I really felt it was my purpose to be always discontent. And I did a very good job of that. To the point of suicide a few times. A real overachiever. But what I didn’t understand, what I didn’t quite make my own, even with the years and years of spiritual teachings, is that our ATTENTION is the God Force that creates worlds. Our ATTENTION is the Goddess’s FOOD for all of creation. And when we put our attention on what we don’t want, we FEED that and just get more and more and more of it. So the trick is to put our ATTENTION only on what we want MORE of. To look around us, even when we are somewhere we think we don’t want to be, and FIND WHAT IS GOOD so that our ATTENTION is feeding only that which we want to sustain.
Because that’s how it works. That is how we change things. What we focus our attention on is fed by the Goddess, and what we don’t focus our attention on naturally withers from lack of food and disappears. Which is why we don’t want to go to war. (Remember, “Resist not evil?” That’s what that is all about.) We just want to FOCUS on throwing our own party. As we do, everything dark that is deprived of the SUNSHINE of our ATTENTION will just…wither away. And what we all turn our FOCUS to will THRIVE beyond anyone’s current imaginings.
Ready to PARTY WITH ME? 😉
Blessings and Love,